Posted by Katt on March 26, 2009 at 10:30:11:In Reply to: How do you handle living with CPAP? posted by Much Worse Than I Feared on March 25, 2009 at 01:29:20:
It's a love/hate relationship right now. I resent having this condition and this thing that feels like a lunchbox on my face. It feels like a genetic curse forced on me by my parents who had this. I hate paying an arm and a leg for it every month because my insurance is too cheap to help. On the other hand, I'm grateful for something that might work to give me some relief. I feel like it's the favorite teddy bear that my mother wrenched away from me and threw out because she felt I was too attached to it. The toy gave me a sense of security and helped me sleep. That's what this machine is. A sense of security and something to turn to when the apnea gets rough and wakes me every other minute of the night. I think of where I would be if I didn't have it. I liken it to my long gone teddy bear.