Posted by lulubelle on June 01, 2009 at 14:49:40:In Reply to: Re: feedback would be appreciated posted by F43 on June 01, 2009 at 12:04:23:
Hi there-
Generally my feelings follow my sleep. If I sleep OK (more than 4 hours), then I feel OK. If I'm sleeping poorly, I get discouraged.
I had to stay off these boards for awhile because I realized I was constantly comparing my recovery to everyone else's. If someone had success with SR in 2 weeks, then I felt like a failure if I wasn't doing as well.A lot of what I deal with is the sense of failure I have around not sleeping well. It seems like some personal shortcoming, and when I read books (and I think I have them all) about spectacular recovery rates with SR, I end up feeling hopeless. I feel if I just try harder, maybe it will work.
I absolutely agree that there is more than just learned insomnia going on with me, but I wanted to give the SR a fair shot just in case my conditioning was deeply entrenched. I also understand that trying too hard can be as big of a problem as not trying hard enough.
In terms of what feels right-I'm not ready to go back on the meds quite yet; I am starting counseling to deal with all of my grief issues (I still cry often about all of the loss), and will give the old SR a bit more time. If I look at my sleep log-it's not quite as bad as I tell myself, but I'm certainly not making improvements.
That being said, when I review "recovery" stories on this forum, it's obvious that some of us take a lot longer than others.
Meds are not off the table by any means, for me the Remeron works really well with minimal side effects. If I am unable to sleep normally because of these other issues, I'm open to it. I think many times meds are not a good idea, because they don't deal with the core issue (anxiety, behavioral issues) and create more problems than they solve (addiction/withdrawl).
Insomnia is very complex disorder, and there are some drivers of sleep issues that can't be resolved, no matter how much acceptance, SR, relaxation, etc you do. The tricky part is figuring out which approach is best.
Thanks again-I hope you are doing well.
- Re: feedback would be appreciated F43 15:31 6/01/09 (2)
- Re: feedback would be appreciated lulubelle 15:59 6/01/09 (1)
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