Posted by baobabble on July 02, 2008 at 10:11:10:In Reply to: Re: Feeling desperate posted by julieme on July 01, 2008 at 15:14:02:
wow. thanks for taking the time to give such a thorough follow up. I am in the care of a psychiatrist. She is the Dr the first suspected that I have N. I've started treatment for depression and I have not smoked or drank since saturday precisely so I can 'face the issues'. It stinks. But i can see how self medicating has hampered my progress. But honestly I think I would have offed myself long ago if hadn't been using. It has only been since I discovered that there is an actual reason behind how I feel that I have had the motivation to stop using. But of course I'm just speculating.
I am curious though, you mentioned emotional instability as reason that women have not stayed with me. Yet you stayed with your bf for so long during his instability. Can you tell me why you did this? What made you stay with him despite the instability?
In regards to thinking of those who have it worse. This usually makes me feel more depressed for being so selfish. It's confusing.
Thanks again for your kindness and insights.