Posted by bebelastrange on May 09, 2009 at 09:52:15:hello fellow "special" sleepers...
i cannot belive this is my first time exploring why i have problems and finding help to lessen my episodes
severity.i am 26 in november and i have been suffering from multiple types of sleep disorders since i was 5.
the first was lucid/terror dreams and progressivly they have gotten worse. i also suffer from leg cramps that
only happens when im half awake. i also sleep-in late and sometimes thru my alarm clocks due to not getting sleep.
i have shadow man. i also since a child would scream.my father is also a similar suffer. i've decided i would talk to him and compare notes.i now i have a fiance that
i have lived with for 2 yrs. he is the first man to share a bed with me. he is the first to suffer from my irratic
sleep behavior. he is dumb founded that my family with history and all has not gotten me help. the only time i
mention to a doc that i got leg cramps in my sleep was when i was 16. he told me to eat bananas & drink milk! I
do all those things and it seems they have no say in that matter.as a kid it was mainly screams in the night, short night terrors and the shadow man looking in my window. my
remedy then was my persian cat (stephen king anyone?). as an adult when i first moved in with my fiance i
had major shadow man problems. i would think i'm awake and i would hear taping on the glass sliders in the
other room. my fiance would often wake up to me with my eyes wide open standing and looking out the window
after calling his name urgently to investigate a sound. he would then talk to me and tell me to come back to
bed...i usually comply. i have no memory of this because i was asleep. this episode is not so bad. it got bad
when i moved into my fiances home and the shadow man suddenly appears in my room by the bed. i ussually scream
and alert my fiance. he then either calms me down and i with in seconds hit the sack after realizing it was a
hallucination.i simply cannot explain to him how real these night terrors seem. i try to explain the room is exactly the same
and if i was really awake. i oncee was able to defeat the shadow man by saying to myself he is not real and slowly
he went away as i focused and awoke. the next chapter is currently in our summer home in europe. i am this time
confronted with darkness & major amnesia confusion as my fiance tries to wake me up and find out whats wrong.
every night i talk sometimes i giggle and somtimes i dream. my fiance now tries to investigate where i am.
sometimes i'm with friends at a party and the next night im in living room. the other night i slept naked
and in my dream i was in a living room sitting on a couch. then i think my fiance tried to wake me or talk to
me and caused my dream to turn. i suddenly was taken to a dark room i was naked and shadow man was there. by
this time my fiance decided to wake me up. you must understand i feel this only makes its worse...to be awaken.
its a slow process to wake up and also a confusing one. i feel so lost and confused b/c my dream vanishes and all
i see is blackness. slowly i try desperately to focus on something familiar in the room. i first focus on a lamp
in the bedroom... but it should be to my left if i'm lying in my bed...not my right. then i realize i am sitting
upright facing the headboard of the bed and my fiance is asking me questions. he said i didn't really answer him
and went back to sleep within seconds.if i had to guess what causes this bad sleeping behavior, one word STRESS. with that said why do i have stress?
moving and setting up a new apartment in a foriegn country can do it. its just that i find it wierd how our
mind hides stress from or councious state and the releases it subconciously during sleep.or is it something else?
bebe
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